“Wasn’t it you who pampered him even though he refused to go to school? He couldn’t even get a certificate because of you.”
Jiang Jun was certain that the mother overindulged their son, yet he never reflected on his own mistakes.
Qiu Mingyan sneered, “Am I the only one who owns our son? Don’t you have to bear part of the responsibility too?”
“Are you trying to drive me mad?” I’m already exasperated because I couldn’t get anything from Jiang Mohan, yet you still want to argue with me now. Do you really want to anger me at this moment?
Qiu Mingyan stopped complaining and began to deliberate another plan. It looks like Jiang Jun really can’t make Jiang Mohan reveal it.
Since he tried twice, Jiang Jun was already impatient and had given up.
Miles away, Nan Cheng closed the door of the ward. Then, he came up to Jiang Mohan and asked, “President Jiang, should I change the ward for you?”
The doctor gave Jiang Mohan permission to be discharged and rest at home. Nevertheless, at this moment, he was most concerned about whether Nan Cheng found out where she was now.
Nan Cheng checked the flights and answered, “Thailand.”
Both of them were aware of the reason that she went to Thailand – She had relatives there.
Nan Cheng could tell that Jiang Mohan loved Zong Yanxi. However, he also knew that it was difficult for him to get her back. After all, not only would Zong Yanxi refuse to accept him, but her relatives also probably wouldn’t agree to it.
Worried that Jiang Mohan would be hurt indefinitely, he suggested, “President Jiang, I think that sometimes when a decision is made, there is no going back. So, I think you should let go of her.”
Jiang Mohan always saw Nan Cheng as his closest and most trustworthy confidant because he was very observant.
It was perhaps the first time Nan Cheng said something like that.
Hence, he was terrified that Nan Cheng’s opinion would probably be right.
His relationship with Zong Yanxi was probably all water under the bridge now.
Furthermore, a human’s life was at stake between them.
His eyes brimmed with tears as soon as he thought about it.
He was supposed to have a family, yet he destroyed it by himself and even killed his own child.
Lately, he could hardly sleep and would always wake up in the middle of the night.
Even if he could finally fall asleep because he was exhausted, a nightmare would befall him.
“Nan Cheng, don’t ever say such things from now on.” Jiang Mohan recollected himself and continued, “Please sign the papers so that I can be discharged from the hospital.”
Since Nan Cheng wasn’t aware of the child, he merely analyzed the situation from an outsider’s perspective. He felt that it was extremely difficult for both of them to let go of the past and get back together.
A mirror that was broken couldn’t be perfectly restored, just like their relationship.
He believed that they would always recall the unpleasant moments whenever they saw each other. So, the psychological barriers would exist within their relationship forever.
If they were bound to regret it, why didn’t they let go of each other to seek their own happiness?
This time, Nan Cheng ignored Jiang Mohan’s advice and added, “If Mrs. Jiang knows that you purposely got close to her for revenge, will she ever trust you again? The answer is no. She wouldn’t trust someone who hurt her and almost took her life. How could she ever convince herself to accept you again?”
Out of sincerity, he gave Jiang Mohan a piece of advice so that he wouldn’t be in pain any longer.
It would probably hurt a lot in the beginning. However, as time passed by, the wound would eventually heal. In the end, only a faint scar would be left, and it wouldn’t hurt anymore.
On the contrary, if the two of them got back together, they had to face each other and unknowingly recall the painful past from time to time.
If that is bound to happen, why don’t they let go and develop a new and comfortable relationship with their own loved ones?
Jiang Mohan stared at him, fists slowly clenched. In fact, he would have asked Nan Cheng to piss off if he was someone else.
Deep in his heart, he felt that part of what Nan Cheng said was true, yet he wouldn’t give up easily.
In reality, she had a place in his heart from the very beginning, yet he wasn’t aware of it at first.
He lost his child and her because of his own deeds. His heart wrenched, he wished to make amends and salvage the relationship.
In the past, he always felt that he didn’t have a real home. Now, he finally realized that throughout their three years of marriage, he already had a home and enjoyed peaceful and happy moments.
“Don’t say such things ever again.”
He didn’t want to hear it anymore.
“Say it one more time, and you shall leave me.”
Nan Cheng was stunned for quite some time before he asked, “Many people wish to get her back, including her elders… Are you really sure about it?”
“I’m sure about it, and so don’t say such things anymore.” Jiang Mohan was aware that Nan Cheng cared about him. In fact, Nan Cheng never talked to anyone about relationships but made an exception now for the first time.
“Nan Cheng.” He asked in a low and slightly hoarse voice, “Do you how it feels when your heart wrenches?”
Nan Cheng shook his head because he had never experienced love that could be deeply inscribed in his heart.
Nevertheless, he understood that to like someone and to love someone were entirely different.
“I know.” Jiang Mohan didn’t look as cold and distant as before, but there was a sense of gloom in his eyes.
He remembered that he almost became a dad once, yet…
At that moment, he felt that he was suffocated.
The girl, whom he had always been looking for, was actually by his side the whole time.
He realized that the past was precious only after he lost it.
“I’m so selfish. I hurt her before, but I still wish to possess her.” He knew that she would have a happier life once he let go of her.
Nevertheless, he couldn’t do it.
Instead, he wanted to put her back in the same position by any means necessary.
He wished to enjoy every meal with her and hug her to sleep every day. Also, he wished that she could always smile at him and be lovey-dovey with him.
She used to say, “Mohan, when we have a child in the future, I hope she is a girl.”
His heart skipped a beat the moment he heard that she wanted a child. However, he soon hid his feelings and asked blandly, “Why do you like girls?”
She said, “Because I can name her Guo to symbolize that we have a fruitful relationship.”
At that time, he didn’t respond to it because deep in his heart, he felt that it was totally impossible.
Ever since they were together, they didn’t purposely use any contraceptives. However, after they were married for three years, she still wasn’t pregnant. So, he opined that she would have been pregnant a long time ago if she were fertile.
Now that Jiang Mohan recalled the past, he knew why he didn’t purposely use any contraceptives when he was with her.
Did I ever consider keeping our baby if she was really pregnant?
At that time, he wasn’t really sure about what his heart desired.
So, such a subconscious behavior actually reflected his true feelings that were buried deep in his heart.
At that time, I wasn’t worried that if she was pregnant, we had to build a family of three. Did it imply that I subconsciously wished to be with her for the rest of our life?
If Jiang Mohan were clear-headed enough, he would make sure that Zong Yanxi wouldn’t get pregnant.
Since he didn’t really love her but wished to take revenge against her, their child would be the casualty. As such, it wouldn’t be difficult for him to deduce the consequences.
Even so, he didn’t act based on his supposedly logical reasoning back then.
Came to think of it, he wasn’t sure when he began to love her.
It could be the first time they met or any time after their first encounter. Also, it could be sometime when they stayed by each other’s side.
Nan Cheng had never seen Jiang Mohan behaving as such. He stopped advising him, considering that Jiang Mohan couldn’t possibly be convinced now.
Perhaps due to his upbringing, Jiang Mohan never exposed his weaknesses to anyone. Instead, he always remained composed and cold to conceal his inner gentleness and hidden feelings.
Therefore, when Jiang Mohan openly shared his inner thoughts, Nan Cheng knew that he had changed.
In fact, he changed ever since he knew that Zong Yanxi was still alive.
In the past, Jiang Mohan would never share his happiness and sorrow with anyone, including Nan Cheng, who stayed by his side for so long.
This time, he unexpectedly revealed his vulnerable self.
“I have something to tell you.”
