Su Zhan’s head suddenly throbbed, and he raised his voice, “I came here today just because we’d used to be close. You were the one who left, who abandoned me, and now you want to blame me for not waiting for you and getting married? Liu Feifei, I am only a human being, so it is impossible for me to wait for you in the same spot forever.
I’m very clear that I don’t love you anymore. I’m not the kid ten years ago who couldn’t get over a breakup anymore. I’m very clear about what I want now, and what I want is my wife. We haven’t really dated before, but I really like her. She’s very innocent and she has a sharp mouth that she uses to tease me. I really find her charming, and I am really attracted to her.”
He did not just age physically over the past ten years; he gained a lot of experience as well, and he was much more mature now than he was ten years ago.
He knew what his heart had desired.
Liu Feifei trembled. Su Zhan doesn’t love me anymore?
Actually, she had already known about that. But she had been dumped by that guy, and she had aborted countless times over the past ten years merely for that guy’s sake.
Su Zhan was just a law graduate ten years ago, and he did not have a background. She liked him a lot back then, but she liked material wealth better.
Even if Su Zhan was to start working back then, he would not have been successful after just a few days.
Besides that, there was a chance that he might not have even been successful in the first place.
Back then, there was a wealthy man who liked her. He was not as good-looking as Su Zhan, but he was wealthier.
When faced with two choices, money or love, she chose the former. She did not dare to let Su Zhan know, so she was unwilling to even meet him when she left.
Actually, she did not even go overseas. She just went to a different city. She pretended that she was going overseas because she did not want Su Zhan to come looking for her.
Throughout those years, the wealthy man had treated her badly even though he had given her a lot of money. Besides that, he had gotten married to a lady from another prominent family two years ago.
His wife had asked people to beat her up after she found out about Liu Feifei’s relationship with the man.
Liu Feifei was pregnant then. She had aborted a lot of times before that, and that beating had caused her uterus to be prolapsed. She was deemed infertile after that incident.
The man did not want her anymore because she was older and she was not as pretty anymore, so he dumped her.
While she was recuperating, she unintentionally heard about Su Zhan. She had only found out that Su Zhan had struck gold back then, and that he was a renowned lawyer that had his own law firm now.
That was why she had returned to B City after she recovered. She wanted to win Su Zhan back.
She heard that Su Zhan did not get married, so she felt like she still had a chance.
Besides that, Su Zhan treated her very well back then, so she wanted to win back the heart of the man who used to adore her.
She had nothing left right now. All she wanted to do was to win him back.
“I don’t want you to leave.” Liu Feifei did not let go of him. No matter what, I will be with him tonight.
Even if he likes his wife, what will happen if the wife proposes a divorce?
Su Zhan’s voice deepened, “You’re not drunk, right?”
He could feel that she was somewhat sober.
“Are you lying to me?” His voice was even lower now.
“Su Zhan, I love you.” Liu Feifei tore his clothes apart and kissed his neck. He then pushed her away and exclaimed, “You’ve changed.”
Liu Feifei did not expect that she would be shoved, so she took a few steps back, “Don’t tell me you haven’t changed?”
Her hair was messy as her face was flushed. Was that the result of the alcohol or her agitation?
She wailed as she looked at Su Zhan. She felt a strong pang of regret because she regretted making the wrong choice. If she did not get together with the wealthy man, she could have had both money and Su Zhan, but now she did not have anything left.
She lost her youth, beauty, and money, and now she was about to lose the man who had treated her well.
No, no, I can’t lose Su Zhan. If I win him back, I’ll get what I wanted, ”I lied to you. I had a reason for leaving you ten years ago.”
“What’s the reason?”
Liu Feifei lowered her head as she thought about it for a while, “I was scared to burden you.”
“What do you mean?” Su Zhan was even more puzzled now.
We used to have nothing back then. How could she even burden me?
“I’m infertile, so I can’t give you any children. I didn’t want you to not have children for the rest of your life, but I was scared to tell you about it. I was scared that you wouldn’t let me go, and I was scared that you would act impulsively. That was why I left without telling you anything.”
After which, she slumped onto the floor, “I had always loved you. I thought that I would forget about you as time passed, but I realized that I couldn’t ever forget you. I kept thinking about the days when we used to be together.”
She wept softly as she cast her gaze on the sofa by the window, “Do you remember what happened here?”
Su Zhan was silent.
They were young and wild, and they had tasted the forbidden fruit on that sofa. From that day onwards, the boy became a man, and the girl became a woman.
The first time was very hectic, but it was beautiful as well.
It was very hard to forget.
He remembered. He would probably remember it for the rest of his life, but that did not mean anything, because there would always be a few memorable incidents throughout a person’s life.
Those things were unforgettable.
But, he was flustered right now because he had found out that Liu Feifei had left him due to her own infertility.
He would not be so conflicted right now if she had said that she liked another man.
He did not know what to do with the truth. This was the answer that he had been searching for, but he could not accept it right away.
He did not know about ‘acceptance’ because he did not love Liu Feifei anymore.
“Why didn’t you tell me the truth?” Su Zhan grumbled, “I wouldn’t have minded. I wouldn’t care if I wouldn’t have any children for the rest of my life. What is the point of you telling me the truth now?”
I’m already married, and now she tells me that she left me because she was infertile.
Not because she didn’t love me. Not because of any other reason, but because of her own disabilities.
He found it amusing.
“You’re so self-centered.” Su Zhan regained his cool, “I wouldn’t have minded in the past, but now, I won’t accept that anymore.”
When he brought up the topic of having children to Qin Ya, he would always fantasize about what his children would look like if she was pregnant.
He had his hopes and dreams.
If he was a little younger, he would not have cared about all of this. He would be satisfied if he was with the person he loved.
But everything has changed now.
Time has changed everything.
“We can’t go back to what we were before. Since the day you’d left, that option has been closed.” Su Zhan’s stance was clear. No matter what, he would never get back together with Liu Feifei, hurting Qin Ya.
“Rest well.” After which, Su Zhan opened the door.
“If you leave, I’ll die here!” Liu Feifei ran towards the kitchen and put a knife to her neck.
Su Zhan turned around to look at her, “Are you out of your mind?!”
Liu Feifei looked at him in the same way he looked at her, “Yes I am. I can’t accept that you don’t love me anymore.”
Su Zhan was livid. He was infuriated by Liu Feifei’s actions.
Liu Feifei did not dare to push Su Zhan’s limits, so her tone softened, “You know how much I loved you. I just can’t accept that you don’t love me anymore. I know I’m being unreasonable, but if you stay the night with me, I promise I won’t appear in front of you ever again. Ok?”
