Right now, Matthias had completely lost his composure and confidence. He was no longer his usual self, and his cowardly character was now totally out in the open. At this moment, Heather could not get away, but she could not ignore him either, so the two embraced each other in a bizarre manner.
“Am I a failure?” Like a child, Matthias was curled up in Heather’s arms. He was a tall and burly man, yet he looked especially fragile at this moment.
“No. There is no winning or losing when it comes to matters of the heart,” Heather replied gently. Recalling her previous relationship, she also thought at that time that she was a failure.
Hearing that, Matthias held back his tears. Men should not shed tears, so he just stared at Heather. With mixed feelings, Heather felt uncomfortable under his stare, and she thought that she saw the old her in his eyes.
“You’re not manly at all when you look like this.” Heather slightly raised her eyebrows, trying to ease the tension.
At this time, no matter what she said, Matthias would not care much. In the past, he certainly could not stand such words from her.
“Yes, all these years, I pretended to be strong, but in fact, I am a coward.” Matthias seemed to have changed back to a past version of himself, who was timider.
Looking at this side of Matthias, Heather even felt some shame in her heart. During that year, it was indeed wrong of her to have treated him like that. When she thought about it, she was the one who had killed him with her own hands, so she hugged him tightly, as if to convey the guilt.
“Don’t talk about yourself like that. You’re already strong.” Like a gentle sister, she comforted him.
Previously, Heather could not understand that kind of weak mentality, but now, she seemed to understand some of it. Sometimes, she herself was weak too. Revealing an ironic smile, she thought to herself that, if she could turn back time, she would not make that kind of decision. Now, nothing could be changed back to what it once was.
“I’m still frustrated about why she could not remember me.” This was a persistent issue in Matthias’ heart, and perhaps if it was resolved, he would not be in so much pain.
“You are concerned about the fact that Myra can’t remember you?” Heather asked tentatively. If it was because of this, then it would not be easy to deal with.
At least in such a short period of time, it was impossible to unravel the problem of Myra’s memory; even Heather did not know why Myra had forgotten Matthias, so she was afraid that it would be difficult for anyone to know the reason for it.
With that, there was no way to find out the reason behind Myra’s loss of memory at this time. Nevertheless, Myra and Tony’s wedding was imminent, while Matthias was anxious for an answer, so it was a time of contradictions.
In short, Heather could not think of a better way to solve this. She had to comfort him as well, so it was a rather uncertain time for her.
“If she can tell me that she no longer loves me and that the past is in the past, I might be able to let go.” Matthias really longed for a clear answer, rather than Myra’s complete loss of memory of him.
He had told himself countless times that Myra had long forgotten about their previous relationship, so he should not be so insistent about those memories created when he was younger. But occasionally, it still popped into his head that Myra might have forgotten him because of some external reason, and perhaps when she recovered that memory, the whole situation would be very different.
However, the second possibility was improbable; besides, even if Myra remembered the relationship they had when she was young, it would hardly affect her current feelings for Tony.
After all, Myra was not one to give up on her current long-term relationship for a past one. Although Matthias knew this, reason always escaped him.
Time and time again, he had tortured himself, but he still could not be freed from it. That relationship he had with Myra had become an obsession, and with such an obsession in one’s heart, it was a happy yet terrible thing.
“Myra is pregnant, so many tests cannot be done,” Heather rather hesitantly said. She felt that she should be clear with Matthias because she was really afraid that he would do something bad.
However, Matthias looked at her in confusion as he didn’t understand what she meant. So, Heather had no choice but to continue, “I once suspected that there was a problem with Myra’s memory, so I deliberately took her to the hospital for tests. However, the doctor could not make a sound judgment because she’s pregnant, so he couldn’t conduct many required tests.”
Heather carefully explained to Matthias so that he could understand.
“You suspect she has problems with her mind?” Matthias asked, pointing to his own head.
“That’s pretty much what it means.” Heather inexplicably felt a pang of guilt because Myra had been losing memory of Matthias little by little.
At that time, Heather was around Myra, and when she discovered the latter was behaving abnormally, she went along with it. She wanted Myra to completely forget Matthias, so naturally, she did not help Myra to remember him. If she had, perhaps Myra would still remember him.
Nevertheless, the responsibility was not all on her because it was a sudden situation for Myra to forget Matthias, so even if Heather had any intention to help her, the effect might not have been great.
After all, at that time, the doctor had also made a lot of efforts, but in the end, nothing worked. All they could do was only to watch Myra completely forget Matthias.
After being discharged from the hospital, Myra never mentioned Matthias again, and at that time, it was good news for Heather.
In fact, she did not feel any guilt during that time. But now when she recalled it, she couldn’t help but shoulder the blame and feel guilty about it. At that, she became quite confused.
“You mean we should wait until Myra has given birth in order for her to be thoroughly examined. Only then the doctor can prescribe the right solution.” Matthias stared at her; he was reluctant and was even more upset when he heard this.
“Yes.” Heather and Matthias stared at each other. The former felt that this version of Matthias gave her the chills.
“But before we can do that, Myra is about to get married to Tony, so even if she later remembers everything later on, she will not have anything more to do with me,” Matthias said reluctantly as he really could not give her up. In his opinion, Myra was his woman.
“Even if Myra now remembered everything, she would not have anything to do with you either. As a bystander, I am very certain that Myra really loves Tony, who of course also deeply loves her. The feelings between them is true love. Think carefully and tell me—back then, was that puppy love between you and Myra really true love?” Heather hoped Matthias could calmly think about it. Perhaps there were certain flaws in their relationship that had caused him to hold onto it for such a long time.
At that time, Myra and Matthias did have feelings for each other, but that did not necessarily mean anything. Anyway, feelings had to develop until a certain stage to be called love.
If they had really gotten together naturally, nobody knew whether they would be separated later, and what would have happened down the road. Hence, Heather wanted Matthias to try to think about it properly. Perhaps in his mind, everything from the past had been beautified too much. After all, they were forced to separate from each other during the infatuation period.
Most people would remember such a relationship, let alone one’s first love. Myra and Matthias were also considered to be each other’s first love. They did not make their feelings known to each other, but they did pour their sincere feelings into the relationship.
Hearing this, Matthias’ expression changed a little. With a stony look, he stared at Heather. It was really bold of her to say something like that at a time like this.
“What you mean is that Myra and I have no future at all, right? You’re saying that the relationship between Myra and me back then was insignificant, and that Myra and Tony’s relationship is true love.” Matthias’ icy voice caused alarm bells to ring in Heather’s mind.
Solemnly nodding under his glare, Heather answered, “Why deceive yourself and others? Myra did not fall in love with you back then, and now, it’s even clearer that she won’t have any kind of relationship with you.” Heather really couldn’t bear to see Matthias continue with this self-loathing, so it was better to coldly shove the cruel reality in his face.
Heather’s words completely enraged Matthias, and reason gradually left the emotionally unstable man. He stood up and looked down at Heather from a high position with a look that chilled her to the core.
“Are you mocking me?” he asked slowly.
“I’m not. I only hope you can accept the reality since I understand Myra better than you do,” Heather shot back.
“If it weren’t for you, Myra and I wouldn’t have been forced to separate in the first place. Perhaps she and I would have gotten married long ago and would even have a child now.” Matthias began to blame Heather, thinking that if she hadn’t interfered in the first place, things wouldn’t have ended up this way.
“There is no ‘if’.” Heather’s words were like a dagger fiercely stabbing into Matthias’ chest. She continued, “Back then, you two couldn’t even make it out of my level of hindrance together, so how do you think you’re qualified to imagine a future with Myra?” Heather was determined to no longer go along with Matthias. In fact, she had to make him understand that a large part of the reason for what happened back then was because he was not strong enough.
“So, all the fault is mine. It was because I was too cowardly that I lost Myra.” Matthias pointed at himself and spoke, his smile becoming more and more ruthless.
“Yes. Every relationship has to go through various tests, and I was just one part of the test of your relationship. You didn’t pass that test, so you were out. It makes perfect sense.” Heather’s face was cold and heartless; she wanted to make Matthias understand that what was lost was lost forever, and there was no use complaining about it.
“Very well. I see that you are unapologetic by pushing the blame onto others.” Now, Matthias had transferred all the anger onto Heather, thinking that she was shirking her responsibility for what happened in the past.
“I’m already taking responsibility for what happened back then. At that time, I was just a child who inevitably made mistakes. Seeing that you keep clinging to this issue, do you want me to take my life to compensate you?” Heather argued back loudly. Since we have to argue, let’s see who’d sound more imposing.
“Very well. Well said, in fact. As you were just a child, I guess anything you did should be forgiven. It doesn’t matter if it ruined someone else’s life or relationship. In the end, it’s my uselessness that has led to this situation.” Matthias spoke self-deprecatingly as he stared at her. At this moment, no one could guess what he intended to do.
